how 

can 

I 

move 

on 

when 

I'm 

still 

in 

love 

with 

you?

Today's perfect song.

One Last Breath.
Please come now I think I'm falling
I'm holding to all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I'm trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down

I'm looking down now that it's over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in His grace
I cried out heaven save me
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down

Sad eyes follow me
But I still believe there's something left for me
So please come stay with me
'Cause I still believe there's something left for you and me
For you and me
For you and me

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking

dancewithme...

One Cell In the Sea.

Are you awake?

Are you aware?

Of that feeling like you are wearing your heart at your sleeve. Of that feeling like you are willing to disappear but you are inclined to stay there and watch your heart beat.

Its the feeling where you look at that other person and when they look back, you feel a great jolt in the heart. Almost like the arrow of cupid. You watch the other person move, laugh and talk. At that point, your infatuation takes over and you wish it would stop. It would control. You wish your heart would stop beating so fast. You wish your eyes would look away. You wish your emotions would contain themselves before you spill them all over the white marble floors.

You'll feel sick. Like butterflies are fluttering against your tummy. You'll feel not perfect. You'll feel the need to smooth down your hair, correct your posture and smile properly. You'll wish that zit would miraculously disappear. You'll wish you don't gush too much or speak too much.

Its like a rush of emotions. Its nothing but a crush.

I don't know. Its been long since this happened.

Foosies.

We met in high school
Now we will be cool
Forever!!!
We been thru our ups and down
But every time we hit the ground
We got back up
Not giving a WAT
Not what people say?
About our strut
How we walk
With our heads up
And standing tall
It's hard for us to stay strong,
Were we think we belong
But we know
Even with them
We think of each other
You say I’m like your bother
You're like my sister
And that all that matters
And we don't care about all that chatter
But they know not to step to us
Knowing that we won’t ever cuss
We won’t get mad
Cause that aint us
All we do is brush
Them off with the dust
Off our shoulders
Cause aint no one colder
Them us we cool
So cool so clever
With bending the rules
And we will be friends
FOREVER

Copied from Thappi's post.

When you're all alone, 

And you need a light, 

Someone to guide you through the night, 

Just remember that I am here, 

To hold you close and dry your tears. 

Oh-ooh 

And just when you thought you were falling, 

But you know I'll always be right there. 

When you're all alone, 

And you need a friend, 

Someone to help you to the end, 

When you need someone to catch you when you fall, 

I'll be there through it all. 

Oh-oh 

Just when you thought you were losing, 

But you know I'll always be right there. 

I'll be there through the good times, 

And the bad, 

And we'll be there for each other, 

You're the best friend I ever had. 

Oh-oooh 

And just when you thought you were falling, 

But you know I'll always be right there. 

Oh-oooh whenever you need me, 

I'll always be right there. 

I'll always be right there...

Holidays.

Holidays are supposed to be fun filled with excitement and .. bubbliness.

Unfortunately, I got to go out just two times [I had a blast] but my holidays sucked because we have exams 4 days later ): And I think Im gonna fail D:

NOOOO!

Anyway, here are pictures of us hangin out. 

Meet Apple, Edo, Nadya and Tony (:

Hung out with them on the 31st before goin to the 'countdown'

So much fun!

I made the apple for apple (: yay

Cute huh? 

Very Twilightish.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Yay.

Photos below the xxx's are of me hangin out with my plumpiyumpiyumpkin fishy.

On the 27th Friday 2008, Nat and I went to Gurney to watch Twilight..again.

But later, she didn't wanna watch it so we had to watch something else.

Except, the  thing was that the movie we wanted to watch together was either full with available seats only in the first row OR it was 3 hours later [which we didn't wanna wait for] so, we stuck with Beverly hill Chihuahua - THE BEST DOG MOVIE EVER! haha

and it was so much fun!!!

And of course, we camhore-d throughout :D 

A tribute.

Haha that picture better cheer her up.

Lin, if you're reading [im not sure if u come here anymore but whateverrr :P] this post is for you! <3

Ill miss:

15. Birthdays, Secrets & Surprises

14. Walking around uselessly in Gurney with nothing to do

13. Camwhoring around the Arcade and freaking people out

12. Calling you Yiping

11. Watching Haruki spill all over the floor while eating Subway sandwitches

10. Looking at twilight pictures on the website.

9. Watching youtube football videos with Moritz and You [laughing like hyenas]

8. Hiding from Mr.Weatherly and pretending to do our work

7. Screaming Danny's name and pretending it wasn't us

6. Gossiping and filling deets on who watched what

5. Teasing Yiping about her pevertedness

4. Calling Novak Djokovich -> Novak Dijovack

3. Hyperventilating about Twilight -while havin a convo with Amin whos in the other class

2. Watching retarded movies and reminiscing about them later

1. Telling you things I don't think anyone would understand

BUT most of all, I'm gonna miss YOU, everything about you :) i sound lesbian but I don't care coz I want you to know how much you mean to me and how much you influenced me. 

ARGH I can't even begin to imagine IB or the rest of the year without you.

IMAGINE YIPING!

WHY ARE YOU LEAVING USS?!?!?!

Ping would torture me with all the perverted thoughts, she has no one else to drop it on and with you gone she's gonna kill me with them! D:<>

:) dramatic, sorry.

Don't worry about fitting in there, you're gonna be great. And it's all gonna be okay.

AND YOU HAVE TO VISIT US!

I hate goodbyes so I'm just not gonna say bye. I'll just say "I'll miss you and I'm always here if you need me, just like you were there for me all these days" 

Aaaaah WANLINOH! / YIPING! haha [sorrry that joke never gets old]

I'LL MISS YOU SO EFFIN' MUCH! 

:(

Dark Blue.

We're performing this song for the Music Assembly :D 

Yes. AWESOME song.

Dark Blue - Jacks Mannequin

                               

I have (I have) you breathing down my neck (breathing down my neck)

I don't (don't know) what you could possibly expect under this condition so

I'll wait (I'll wait) for the ambulance to come (ambulance to come)

Pick us up off the floor

What did you possibly expect under this condition so

Slow down.. this night's a perfect shade of

Dark blue (dark blue)

Have you ever been alone in a crowded room when I'm here with you

I said the world could be burning down

Dark blue (dark blue)

Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you

I said the world could be burning 'til there's nothing but dark blue..

Just dark blue

This flood (this flood) is slowly rising up swallowing the ground

Beneath my feet, Tell me how anybody thinks under this condition so

I'll swim (I'll swim) as the water rises up, the sun is sinking down

And now all I can see are the planets in a row

Suggesting it's best that I slow down

Crave for MORE!

From my obsession, Im pretty sure its obvious I would've gone to watch the movie the day it premiered! Unfortunately, the first seating for the movie was midnight so well, I couldn't go for that one. However, the next day which was the 27th [premiere] I went at 5:00 to watch it with my friends Izy, Michelle, Amin and Nazim. Izy and I loooooved it. Even though Michelle hadn't read the book she enjoyed it too :D WE thought it was awesome. Didn't really ask the guys though ;)

Coz its a more of a love story and such.. but Nazim thought it was fine anyhow (:

We were in tears during the movie. I hyperventilated 

throughout and aaaaaaah it was the best 2 hours of my life. PERIOD. 

Sometimes, I wish I WAS THE ONLY girl out there who knew about twilight so these friggin lucky ones wouldn't get all the goodies. Selfish much.

themness. all obsessive. well not as much as me :P 

Twilight.

It's finally here!

I have been roaming everywhere tryina get all twilight mega awesome stuff. 

From magazines, to movie tickets, to printing 45 pages of twilight news reviews!

For crying out loud! Obsess much? 

I shall post all the obsessive pictures of twilight I took and label those I stole from everyone else's online XD

P.S: Just so you know, there is a LOT about twilight out there, I won't really be able to copy paste each and every single one of 'em. So, yeah. But ill try my best to put the most interesting ones here. Hail all to the no.1 movie in the Box Office :D

BOX OFFICE TOP 10

Estimated ticket sales for Friday through Sunday at U.S. and Canadian theaters, according to Media By Numbers LLC. Final figures will be released Monday.

1. Twilight                                  $70.5 million

2. Quantum of Solace                  $ 27.4 million

3. Bolt                                        $ 27 million

4. Madagascar: Escape 2 Africa                 $16 million

Personally, I loved the movie although I thought it could've been better. I think the actors were a perfect match. And I can't wait for the next 3 movies to come out *fingers crossed* 

AAAARGHHHH. anticipation.

I'm i

n love with a fictional character ):

I love you Stephenie Meyer and Catherine Hardwicke.

For those of you who don't already know..

Twilight is about a story of a 17 year old girl, Isabella Swan who moves to a small town c

alled Forks, 

Washington to li

ve with her father and becomes drawn to 

Edward Cullen [aaah,edward] a pale, mysterious classmate who seems determined to push her away. But neither can deny the attraction that pulls them together. Even when Edward confides that he and his family are vampires Bella is unwilling to let him go and be away from him. Their romance puts her in physical danger when Edward's nemesis comes to town and sets his sights on Bella. 

Twilight WAS realeased on the 21st of November [2008 :P] although here in Malaysia, it was supposed to air on the 27th. We had to wait 6 DAYS for this! So worth it. If you don't watch it, you're missing out on the without-a-doubt the best novel-romantic-movie-story there ever was. 

Sink your teeth into twilight girls and boys  ^___________________^

Official Track Listing: 

1. Muse = Supermassive Black Hole

2. Paramore = Decode

3. The Black Ghosts = Full Moon

4. Linkin Park = Leave Out All the Rest

5. MuteMath = Spotlight [Twilight Mix]

6. Perry Ferrell = Go All The Way [Into the Twilight]

7. Collective Soul = Tremble For My Beloved

8. Paramore = I Caught Myself

9. Blue Foundation = Eyes on Fire

10. Rob Pattison = Never Think

11. Iron & Wine = Fightless Birth

12. Iron & Wine = American Mouth

13. Carter Burwell = Bella's lullaby

Twilight Movie Cast (: PRETTY & HANDSOME eh? 

Check out: 

http://www.ew.com/ew/article/0,,20152943_20153269+20243109,00.html

River Flows In You.

Okay. 

So, in the book, Edward has a lullaby for Bella coz of her insomnia and blah blah [which personally I think is very sweet] And because Edward is the PERFECT guy out there, obviously, his lullaby is supposed to pretty perfect as well. So, since the book's like, becoming this amazing movie, the lullaby HAS to be in it :D [and different people after reading the book have their own personal way of loving it and I'm pretty sure neither of them have thought about the lullaby being an actual song as they probably think theirs is too uh, not special yeah. well like i said, its supposed to perfect coz Edward makes it so. Basically, there are 2 songs people confuse about being Bella's lullaby. One of them is by Carter Burwell, the other one is fan made by some kid named Yiruma. [I know nothing of the person]Anyway, the official lullaby is supposed to be by Carter Burwell, but most of the fans out there including myself, we all love Yiruma's piece. It just fits better and it sounds so..aaaaah

lol.

yeah so, um.. I have both videos here [not official ones] you can just listen to it.

let the music take you where it may (:

P.S: I've played this over and over a million times 216 to be exact since I downloaded it in a sleepover and listened to it with Nat and this piece has me in its fingertips. If you're a girl and if you've read the book you'd understand what it feels like just listening to it the first time. For me, everytime I listen to it, its like the first time giving me this mix of emotion that just makes me want to cry coz there's no awesome guy out there who can even be remotely close to how Edward is with Bella. hah. okay I've stopped making sense again so ill just stop. 

Hope you guys love it like I do. 

CARTER BURWELL

YIRUMA

                                

Bitten by Edward.

TWILIGHT

I swear to god, I have never been so excited EVER in my ENTIRE life.

This is just so, omg.

I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT TWILIGHT <3 

I cant wait to watch it ):

ARGH, it came out on the 21st to USA but its out on the 27th in PENANG.

I dunno why they have to release on different dates different places. 

Its just really annoying.

Anyway, lots of people [mostly guys] who didn't read the book or know nothing about it absolutely loved the trailer, so if theres a guy out there who thinks the book is lame, give this video a chance coz its so fuckin amazing.

Best Trailer Ever.

Retard = Me.

Twilight is coming on the 27th!

Happy Birthday Bods.

..yeah twilight.

I JUST LISTENED TO THE LULLABY.

IM IN LOVE WITH IT <3

(:

forever and ever.

Crush.

I dedicate this to you.

"Because you listened to it, and I did too" ;)

I hung up the phone tonight 

Something happened for the first time 

deep inside 

It was a rush, what a 

rush 

'Cause the possibility 

That you would ever feel the same way about me 

It's just too much, just too much 

Why do I keep running from the truth? 

All I ever think about is you 

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized 

And I've just got to know 

Do you ever think when you're all alone 

All that we can be, where this thing can go? 

Am I crazy or falling in love? 

Is it real or just another crush? 

Do you catch a breath when I look at you? 

Are you holding back like the way I do? 

'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away 

But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy 

Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy 

Has it ever crossed your mind 

When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends? 

Is there more, is there more? 

See it's a chance we've gotta take 

'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last 

Last forever, forever 

Do you ever think when you're all alone 

All that we can be, where this thing can go? 

Am I crazy or falling in love? 

Is it real or just another crush? 

Do you catch a breath when I look at you? 

Are you holding back like the way I do? 

'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away 

But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy 

Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy 

Why do I keep running from the truth? 

All I ever think about is you 

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized 

And I've just got to know 

Do you ever think when you're all alone 

All that we can be, where this thing can go? 

Am I crazy or falling in love? 

Is it real or just another crush? 

Do you catch a breath when I look at you? 

Are you holding back like the way I do? 

'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away 

But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy 

This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy 

Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy 

Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy 

Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Zac Efron.

SHOULD be edible. Period.

He's totally gorgeous.

Okay okay, I'm NOT kidding myself here. Ha ha.

Usually, I wouldn't think Zac Efron is THAT cute as high school girls would gush about.

Well no offense to Zac's fans out there, but in my opinion he wears a bit too much makeup.

He looks yummy in High School Musical though.

I just spend 2 - 3 hours in the cinema watching the most extravanganzic-al musical ever XD

ALONE, may I say. After countless calls of making plans with my friends to see the movie and cancelling all of them, I realized tonight that watching it myself ALONE in a cinema filled with 499 seats was the best way to fully appreciate all of it.

Troy Bolton, You've got me on the tip of your fingers.

I love you! <3

Whats-her-name has nothin' on u (:

P.S: In the picture he looks like he's about to turn into hulk or something but I couldn't keep my eyes off him the entire time through the whole movie. [And I'm so not a groupie of Zac Efron, I beg to differ-I just think he's awesome in the movie, and ARRRGH why did it have to end?, I was just beginning to like it ]:

Them.

i.LOVE.you.from.the.bottom.of.my.Heart <3

                                           Eana Ibrahim:

                                            A.K.A : Foosi

Lafwa Thaufeeg

A.K.A: Thappi

Iana Nashid

A.K.A: Naani

Hamsha Hussein

A.K.A: Hamshi

Mohamed Rafhan 

Ismail

A.K.A: Rafoo

Mohamed Zayan Zubair

A.K.A: Zai

Aysha Athif Jameel

A.K.A: Ayshie

Raya Rasheed

A.K.A: Mendy

Shaifa Shahid

A.K.A: Shy

Faena Fayyaz

A.K.A: Teapot

Hamra Ahmed

A.K.A: Humpty

 

Nashra Hassan

A.K.A: Nattu

Natsumi Hashimoto:

A.K.A : Fish Face

Michelle Dresler

A.K.A: Foxy

Isabella Stromeich Presicek

A.K.A: Izy / Azy

Yiping Fong

A.K.A: Ping Pong

Yolaine Betton

A.K.A: Yol (:

Amin Borgfeldt

A.K.A: Ameeeeeeeen

Nigel Chu

A.K.A: Nigel (:

Wanlin Oh

A.K.A: Watermelon Geek

Joanna Octoria Lay

A.K.A: Bing

Annie Jung

A.K.A: Bunny

&

Bibi Syakeera Badhri

A.K.A: Beebs

 

Pringgo Husin

A.K.A: Pringles

JeeMin Jang

A.K.A: J.M

Ong Chuin Chieh

A.K.A: Sucessful King

 

Jennifer Leigh

A.K.A: Jenny (:

Alyssa Ooi

A.K.A: Ally (:

***MISSING PICTURES***

Aish Mohamed Saeed

A.K.A: Elmo / Romeo XD

Shaiha Ahmed

A.K.A: Shai

Imran Naseer

A.K.A: Imma

Aththoaf Mohamed

A.K.A: Athoof

NOTE: There might be mushy cheesy things below, so CAUTION!!

I just wanted to tell you all that I love all u guys with all my heart and Im so glad I got to know you, you're all so awesome and I couldn't ask for better friends.

Each and everyone of you is unique and thats what I love about you guys.

You're always here for me, through the hard times and when i get way too crazy and loose my mind.

You don't judge and you accept me for who I am.

You lift me up and bring me back on my feet.

And I love you all for that, for being there for me and for being who you are.

Nothing can change what you mean to me.

No matter where we are in 10 years time, ill always count you guys as my friends and you'll always remain with me forever.

You're all beautiful both on the inside and out.

Don't be afraid to shine. "Warriors and Princesses" XD

Kick some ass muffins. I've got your back :]

P.S: There is no order as to how each and everyone mean to me, if I could, I would put everyone as one and then post it here but its not possible, so.. yeah.. 

And im sorry if i missed out anyone ): its hard to choose such little from all the amazingnessers (: 

<3 FOREVER AND EVER BABEs  <3

Over.

NEAR TO YOU

A Fine Frenzy

He and I had something beautiful

But so dysfunctional

It couldn't last, I loved him so but I let him go

'Cause I knew he'd never love me back

Such pain as this have to experienced

Im still reeling from the loss,

Still a little bit delirious

CHORUS

Near to you, I am healing

But its taking so long

'Cause though he's gone and you are wonderful

It's hard to move on

Yet, I'm better near to you

You and I have something different

And I'm enjoying it cautiously

I'm battle scarred, I am working oh so hard

To get back to who I used to be

He's disappearing

Fading suddenly

I'm so close to being yours

Won't you stay with me

Please

CHORUS

Yet, I'm better near to you

I only know that I am

Better where you are

I only know that I am

Better where you are

I only know that I belong

Where you are

CHORUS x 2

Yet, I'm better near to you.

oh well.

Adore.

There should be a song with these lyrics right here:

Is this love... ?? dot dot dot

I dunno.. I don' think so

So why is it that all I ever think about it is you?

What does it mean?

It makes no sense whatsoever to be feeling this way,

You awesome stranger

Yeah Yeah 

Is this love?

Dont ask me, coz I dont know, I don't think so

OH FISH it.. I've gone crazy.. D:

The closest lyrics to what I've got:

I find I spend my time

Waiting on your call,

How can I tell you, baby

My backs against the wall

I need you by my side

to tell me its alright,

Coz I dont think I can take anymore

Ohh DUDE these lyrics are awesome..

D: haha now if that someone asks me what I really feel for "that guy" I shall giv them the name for this song :D smart eh?

WhiteSNAKE - Is This Love?!?

"Wasted Days and Sleepless Nights, I Can't Wait to See You Again"

P.S: I haven't heard it so, I dunno if you guys'll like it.. J'adore la lyricz

Is this love that Im feeling

Is this the love, Ive been searching

Is this love or am I dreaming

This must be love 

Coz its really got a hold on me,

A hold on me.. dot dot dot

AM I A TOTAL LOSER FOR BEIN LOV-AHOLIC OR WHAT? >.< dont answer that :|

Wish I could stop obsessing over him..

Coz he's got me tangled up in this web

I cant seem to break free from within..

Maybe I should stop thinking about him..

Maybe then I can think about how I really feel for him..

I need a LIFE!